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Wrecked by His Love

You’ve seen this beautiful pair of 45″ quill flags before when my sister demo’d them. Now you get to read the wonderful scarf story and see the recipient worship with them herself 🙂

She also shares this story on her blog if you want to visit there too!

Back story:

I have always been hard to love. I can securely admit that. I’ve struggled my whole life carrying around a stony heart. It pretty much goes back to me always feeling like “second pick” (my middle name is Leah). Every time I would read about Leah, Jacob and Rachel I would totally side with Leah, because she was me. I’ve never felt beautiful, but all I’ve ever wanted was to be captivating to someone (doesn’t every girl?) But somewhere along the way, I “realized” that I would never be beautiful enough to completely capture anyone’s attention. So, I resolved to give but to never hope for much in return.

So, I poured myself out in worship over and over again, always feeling unspeakable love for Him, but never really letting His love invade the deep realities of my heart. But even though I had trouble feeling Him respond to my worship, I knew He was faithful. I knew that He was trying, but that I wouldn’t let my heart feel him. So, in faith, I kept worshiping over and over again, knowing that one day I would live in the fruit of that outpouring.


Two weeks ago I finally decided to order my flags. Leaving the decision up to God as to what colors they would be was VERY hard for me. I’m all about some color and I remember begging Him, “ANY COLORS BUT THESE, PLEASE!” But I took the leap. I came in to work yesterday and there the package was on my desk. “!!!!” “What colors can they be??” I tore into the package. Wow they were breath-taking. They weren’t colors that I would have picked for myself, (imagine that) put they were perfect. I took my lunch break to go home and worship.

God ruined me in that moment with the contents of the letter. While I was letting Him choose the perfect flags I could bless Him with, He turned it around and chose the perfect flags to bless me with! Since when did I deserve to be loved? How could He spend the time I dedicated to Him raining compliments down on me? Since when was anything in this relationship about me? And He whispered into the depths of my heart all the things I thought I would never hear:

“It’s always been about you! I’ve always loved you! I’ve always given everything to be with you. I gave my life for you. You are perfect. Your beauty is flawless!”

Tears happened, yes they did. I remember thinking, “These flags are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.” He said,

“YOU are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. I cannot turn my eyes from you.”

And I broke. My stony heart shattered into pieces as He spoke love into my spirit. A heart of flesh beats inside of me and I can feel Him! I am beautiful! I’m flawless.

Waves of peace just kept breaking over me. While driving back to work, sitting at my desk, putting in pharmaceutical orders, I was being romanced. My skin felt like I had danced in the moonlight as the dew fell, I kept smelling a sweet aroma and my mouth was absolutely watering. I have no explanation for this and I know it sounds crazy but it’s the truth. The peace really is indescribable. I’ve tried for an explanation of it, but this is as close as I can come to articulating it:

I’m in the arms of my first love. My true love. The one I was made to want. I’m resting peacefully in His arms, drinking in the precious moment. He leans down and whispers into my ear everything I’ve ever wanted to hear. He is captivated by me, I am His everything, He would do anything in pursuit of me and He would give His life for me. Now, I am peaceful. Now, I KNOW nothing can come between me and Him. There is nothing that can harm me in His arms and everything is right with the world. Perfect, blissful peace.

He is the one who is pursuing you in this relationship. Don’t miss the chance to encounter His over-whelming love, because it really will wreck your world. In a good way!

The first song is “Sweet Melody” from the album “Dream: A Release Into Creative Dreaming” by Josh Albillo and the second song is “Meant to Live” by Switchfoot. The second song was unplanned by her, but we know Father wasn’t shocked 😉

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19 thoughts on “Wrecked by His Love

  1. Awww *I’m* teary reading and watching :*) Honestly one of the purest and most sincere worship dances I’ve seen in a very, very long time. Just beautiful. You can feel the waves of breakthrough and shalom coming from your worship. Oh my, just beautiful!

  2. Beautiful !! You are truly beautiful and have a heart to worship. I needed this today watching this beautiful peaceful worship brought peace to my soul and calmed my Spirit. God is so faithful to us !!

  3. Was watching this video…when I was chosen to win a gift from Dyed4you…what an amazing day this has been….thank-you!

  4. These are just lovely. It’s so weird but a couple of weeks ago I was sitting in our ministry meeting just worshipping and I “saw” my daughter dancing with flags that were like these. I looked at your site the next day (which I haven’t done in a while) and saw you now had these new quill flags. I was intrigued but wasn’t sure if I would even be able to explain what I was looking for so I just left it alone. Now today they’re posted on my feed. WOW. I may just be having to place an order very soon 🙂

    PS to the woman who received these flags “There is nothing second choice about you!!!” Amazing

  5. Simply Amazing!!! GOD knows just how to Love us!!! I can’t stop cryin’!!! I am sooo Blessed by your testimony!!!

  6. I so agree with Amanda. I was so touched by your beautiful story and pure worship to him. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I needed this today…very blessed by this.

  7. Leah, you are so much more than you ever thought yourself to be. Your testimony literaly made me sob, and then watching the vid, such joy….

  8. What a wonderful story! I can so relate to many of your feelings! Your dancing was awesome and truly inspired!

    The flags are gorgeous too!


  9. Absolutely beautiful testimony!! I loved watching her dance in the love of the Lord, and the flags are gorgeous.

  10. Wow. I’m so blessed by all your beautiful comments. His love is so amazing isn’t it? It never ceases and breaks overs us wave after wave. Learning to live IN His love is hard for me, but there is no dance He can’t dance with me 🙂 He knows ’em all, praise Jesus!

  11. Beautiful video and testimony, I’m so very glad you shared with us. And I am so very glad you have allowed yourself to receive from the Lord. He is so awesome.

  12. I am weeping over this story…

    …” So, I poured myself out in worship over and over again, always feeling unspeakable love for Him, but never really letting His love invade the deep realities of my heart.” yes, ma’am… and “And I broke. My stony heart shattered into pieces as He spoke love into my spirit. ”

    i’ll give you a high 5 in the spirit, because i can’t even speak.

    much love 🙂

  13. there is nothing better than when Jesus Himself gives you the revelation of how much He loves you….I remember when He first gave me that revelation, (while I was worshipping), and I became completely undone. Even said to my husband….I can’t do this, can’t wrap my head around what He’s trying to tell me…my heart is not even big enough to contain all the love He has for me. It was beautiful how she discribed her heart, His love, and how it affected her. 🙂 I love the flags

  14. Wow! Thank you so much for your transparent testimony. I have also been working through breaking that bearier, just wanting to go closer and deeper into the heart of God. And your worship on the video is beautiful!

  15. Beautiful testimony and worship. I also love reading the comments, especially the one of the woman who ‘saw’ these flags in the spirit before she saw them in real life. I hear that repeatedly and it blesses me to know the Lord is showing the Quill Flags to worshipers!

  16. THANK YOU for your transparency; this truly blessed my heart and… I’m so out of words right now!! Ahh… Beautiful!! :’)

  17. This story PLUS that dance…WOW 🙂 It’s incredible how the Father will speak to us and how consistently He reminds us that He LOVES our worship. Thank you for sharing such a deep part of yourself with us!

  18. I came across this today and notice that it was posted over two months ago. Absolutely beautiful! Story, flags, worship, all of it! Her feet may have physically been on the ground in the video, but I could see her spirit leaping up and playing, feeling loved and joyous and connected. What a blessing it has been to me to read and watch this today! 🙂

  19. Lying in a hospital bed this morning praying for a word from God I came across this story. I cant stop crying. I was reminded that God truly loves us. He loves me. Thanks for sharing your story.

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