I’m sending out an SOS because I am on the messy side – so be forewarned!
It’s now a little less than 36 hrs away from when we leave for Sukkot and there’s still lots left to do. Praise report, everything that came in before Friday is done and shipped. So that’s good, what’s difficult is I’ve had like 5 or 6 orders come in since then, and frankly I’d hoped to leave with a largely clean slate. But, I trust the Lord knows what He is doing.
I am still struggling with periodic waves of…. mmm, anxiety is too strong a word, but you get the idea… over Sukkot (the Feast of Tabernacles). Don’t know how physically challenging it will be, I’ve been asked to teach two classes (one on colors and the other on flags), no idea how or what to cook… etc. Probably by the second day when it’s no longer all unknown I’ll be better, but for now – it’s a battle not to freak out. I know the Lord is leading me here and am looking forward to the deep times of worship (every night for several hours) – I want all He has planned to deposit in me during this feast.
PayPal
Ok, so this is the biggie and the reason I am struggling with full-fledged anxiety tonight (which again, is not something I typically struggle with). PayPal has already locked down my account and I am unable to withdraw funds from it. Further, by the end of the month I will no longer be able to RECEIVE payments either, which in essence shuts down all facets of D4Y. Now also realize that tomorrow is a holiday and Tuesday morning I leave and I’m gone until the 20th.
Essentially what PayPal is said is that I have to register as a Not-for-Profit with the state (which doesn’t mean I’m a 501c3, it just puts me on the radar as a not-for-profit) before they will release my account. They’re reasons are PayPal rules, rather than legal rules (which is frustrating) and I’d have to open a bank account in D4Y name etc.
Here’s the thing, the reason I hadn’t pursued the 501c3 thing is because I never got a “go” from the Father to do so. I feel uncomfortable being pressured to do so by PayPal given that I don’t know all the legal ramifications of doing so. I REALLY need to hear from the Father on this. I need to know what He wants me to do. That’s all that matters. Literally I’ve laid the ministry on the altar and am waiting to hear what He says.
Additionally, if I were to pursue it, all this costs money and any money coming in is frozen. I realize nothing is too big for Him, but I need peace and wisdom. I feel so defeated at the moment. I realized part of why this is affecting me so much is that I strive to be above reproach in all I do, so when I DO get reprimanded it’s hard for me, especially when it’s not clear if I DID inadvertently do something wrong. I’m kinda messy as a result, which made me not want to email y’all, but then I realized those were exactly the reasons I need to.
Love you all so much and appreciate your support, especially in this season. You’re such blessings to me 🙂
Praying. Love you. More later.
Sukkot: I have such excitement for both you and Allan! May He who IS peace place peace in your head, heart, and spirit as you are choosing to honor Him by giving your time and talents. May He bless you with provision in all things and all ways for placing your life and business on hold to draw nearer to Him! I ask that as you travel, your family, health, home, and mind are left in the Father’s hands and under His protection and purview. May angels accompany you and guard you from any attack of the enemy. I pray Psalms 91 over all aspects of Meghan’s life during this trip of faith and celebration, may she be sealed with the blood of the Lamb, and a living vessel of hope and healing!
PayPal: Father, cover Meghan with your peace and speak wisdom to her heart and mind. James 1:5 says ” 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.” I believe this for Meghan personally and for Dyed4You Ministries. Only You Lord can give light to the path she must take to carry on Your will. May she be assured of Your voice and heaviness lifted from her spirit. Any unholy hold on Dyed4You finances is broken by the obedience that Meghan walks in and in Jesus name the enemy must retreat from any attack because Meghan is the Lord’s anointed and D4Y is Kingdom business and it will not be touched! Lord thank you for your victory in this area, I praise you for Your sovereignty over ALL things!
Love you Meghan!!! I will be keeping my ear to the spirit and praying as He leads, bless you!
Meghan, I stand in agreement with Kim!
May your time with Abba during Sukkot be fulfilling, awesome, inspiring, & eye opening!!!!!!!!!!!!
Abba, I pray that you would provide supernatural, unexpected avenues of provision for Meghan & Allen. That all issues regarding D4Y and PayPal would be resolved without further incident or expense.
Amen!!
Meghan, you are LOVED!
Meghan,
I too stand in Agreement with what Kim and Elaine have spoken.
I pray that during your time at Sukkot you and Allen are so blessed. I pray that you recieve revelation or things that you are dealing with at this time. I ask for protection as you travel, a hedge of procection over your home and your ministry. Be blessed my friend and rest in HIS wings.
God is leading you and HE will give you the direction of what to do and which way to go with PayPal. HE is in Control. I know that you already know this, but I have to remind myself sometimes 🙂
In Jesus name, Amen
♥ you so much
Father, I agree. This is really difficult and I know You understand. Thank Hou for clarity, wisdom, and peace. Thank You for releasing a sign to Meghan concerning Your intentions. She is Your lamb and follows You faithfully. Father, Your faithfulness reaches to the heavens and Your grace is deeper than the seas. Your love is immeasurable and I praise You, Holy One for Your Son, Yeshua. Holy Spirit, thank You for Your presence and sweet aroma, as You are Meghan’s Teacher, Coach, and Comforter.
Blessings, beautiful friend:)
My sense as I read your post and prayed is to stay “still” and He will
direct your path. “See” a stop sign and believe the direction to turn or stay straight will be clear to you. No pressure. Perhaps a child will confirm the direction:) Thank You, Jesus.
I agree in prayer with my sisters! The Lord will honor you seeking first the Kingdom of God as you go and spend this time with Him. I also heard Shepherd as I was praying. So I am adding Ps 23 because this is your time to be with your Shepherd. Enjoy the feast he is laying before you!
Psalm 23 AMP
A Psalm of David.
1THE LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
2He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still and restful waters.
3He refreshes and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him–not for my earning it, but] for His name’s sake.
4Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.
5You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with [a]oil; my [brimming] cup runs over.
6Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.
Footnotes:
a.Psalm 23:5 It is difficult for those living in a temperate climate to appreciate, but it was customary in hot climates to anoint the body with oil to protect it from excessive perspiration. When mixed with perfume, the oil imparted a delightfully refreshing and invigorating sensation. Athletes anointed their bodies as a matter of course before running a race. As the body, therefore, anointed with oil was refreshed, invigorated, and better fitted for action, so the Lord would anoint His “sheep” with the Holy Spirit, Whom oil symbolizes, to fit them to engage more freely in His service and run in the way He directs–in heavenly fellowship with Him.
Cross references:Psalm 23:2 : Rev 7:17
I combine my prayers with all the others and agree. I too, like Dr. Mel, sensed as I was reading that you were to be still and He would give you direction or possibly take care of it all for you. As you go on sukkot, you are to shake it off and leave it behind because the Lord is working on your behalf. Let Him work while you are to rest. He will give you what you need during this time of seeking Him. You are not to seek the answer, but seek His face. And it will be gently and beutifully be dropped into you like a little surprise present. It will be wonderful.
Love you sweet lady. May the peace that passes understanding guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.