I knew it had been a while since my last update, but didn’t realize it had been almost 2 weeks! My apologies. Since I have a bit of dyeing to get done before people arrive, I’m going to give you the quick version of my update.
Sales
Sales are still low. Lower than they’ve been in over a year. I know Donelda’s at North Star Books (who sell D4Y/D4Yart) are as well. Prayer for both greatly appreciated! Also prayer to not be discouraged. Donelda is doing better than I am in this area I think, but I know I’m struggling.
I have to be honest and say if I was completely confident all our material needs would be covered I don’t think I would care that sales are down – in some ways I’m enjoying the break (and need it). So in some respects this is a heart issue with trusting God which only discourages me more because given all we’ve already been through I cannot fathom why I wouldn’t be breezing through this test.
A couple praise reports though – we needed to pay the insurance and the money simply wasn’t there, but literally just in time I got one big order that was enough to cover the whole thing and get groceries too. Also, our A/C went out yesterday in the middle of a 100 degree week and my bro-in-law was there within 1.5 hrs and has us up and running an hour later. So again, God’s taking care of us – just closer to the wire than I appreciate.
More Heart Stuff
Recently I’ve discovered a number of my D4Y customers bought dye and went to try to do what I do. Two of them plan to sell their wares. I have to admit it’s hurt me in ways I would not have expected (since I truly have been winning the battle against feeling competitive). It’s been a mix of feeling rejected and struggling with feeling like something is being stolen from me, which given our financial crunch due to low sales HURTS! Not sure how to ask you to pray exactly, but I know y’all will let HS lead you.
Hubby
Unlike me, Allen is continuing to do AMAZINGLY! This is a major praise report and I know your prayers helped bring this major breakthough. This has helped as I have been messy on and off over the last period.
MorningStar
Please pray for wisdom. I am incredibly frustrated with the lack of interaction in the MorningStar Fellowship of Ministries (MFM). When I joined I was told about lots of virtual ways to connected that didn’t require traveling – none have materialized, yet month after month I continue paying my dues.
I joined because I heard the Lord say “Get ordained through MorningStar” – and then MorningStar told me to be considered for ordination I had to join MFM. The reason is so they can get to know me. Well now I’m months into it and they still don’t know me at all because there’s been no opportunity to do so without me having to shell out $$$ to travel to them.
I’m just trying to understand if this is where God wants me or if I got off-track somewhere. So prayer appreciated!
Health
Sleep stuff is going ok. I’m earlier than I was, but not really falling asleep early – I just lay there for hours, but I am trying (most nights). I have some odd things going on in my belly – think it might be the probiotics I started taking but we’re waiting to see – might be something else. Continued prayer support appreciated – I’m frustrated with what feels like a lack of progress, yet not wanting to move any faster.
In Closing
I think one of the reasons I haven’t sent updates is I feel like a broken record in my requests. I’m discouraged/depressed, sales are down, not sleeping, etc – over and over. I want to have more interesting and exciting things to pray through, but this is where I am at the moment – messy as it is. Thank you all for covering me in the midst of it and extending grace to me… bless you all!
Thank you Meghan for your honesty. And messy is definitely okay. I know you don’t like to be messy and sharing that is way vulnerable, but from my perspective it is encouraging because you are someone who definitely hears from God, with numerous testimonies to prove it, and yet you find yourself in times of messiness and struggle. I think, man, if she is struggling then I’m okay too. You are not alone. And I am not alone.
I too am seeing God provide. Sometimes at the last minute, but provides none the less. Here’s another praise to think on. Last month, my sons allergies were so bad that his eyes were almost swollen shut and stinging at night like there was soap in them. God had told us before that we could not charge any credit unless we had money to pay for it in the bank. We did not have the funds for doctor or medicine AND we were out of gas for the car. I asked Jesus how we were to pay for it and if I could put it on the card without money in the bank and he simply said, yes, I will provide. Dr & medicine was $90 and I put $10 gas in the car. By the end of the week a friend walked into the store and said God had told her to come and give us $100 exactly and was very specific about the amount.
Lord, your word says that “The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.” So we will continue to pray and ask again what we have asked before. Because we do not back down. We do not give up. We continue fervently. Though things don’t seem to change in the natural. We believe they are changing in the spirit realm. Victory is ours in Jesus name. Lord, I lift you precious servant Meghan before you and bring supplication on her behalf once again. You have called her and You are faithful. That is what your word says and that is what we know and believe. For your word is unchanging and your word is true. That is why we come with these requests again. To remind you of your promises but to say, too, that we STILL BELIEVE. And we have not lost hope and we will not stop. Father God, surround Meghan with your peace that passes understanding. Surround her with your wings of protection and your arms of comfort. Let her come, just how she is and where she’s at, and find strength and healing in your presence. Thank you Lord that you care so much for every detail of our lives. Thank you for what you are doing in Allen. Give him insight and discernment into Meghan. Show him things he has not seen and does not know. For you are the revealer of mysteries. Thank you for joining them together for such a time as this. And Lord we ask for resolution with MFM. Let breakthrough come. Thank you Lord for Meghan and what she is to each of us and to your kingdom. Praise you Jesus for the answers we will see come to pass in the VERY NEAR future. Answers that are even now on their way. Amen.
:/ Sorry if this was too long. Your messiness stirred up my faith. 😀 We are for each other an Aaron and Herr. Be encouraged. You do not stand alone. We link our sheilds. We are more than conquerors.
Abba, Thank you for the blessing that Meghan and 4Y have been to me and many others.
Please grant her avenues of provision above and beyond what she and Allen know or even expect. You are Jehovah Jireh our provider and we stand on that promise!
Abba show her the path you have for her. Help her to hear you clearly for all things are in YOUR hands. Guide her every step.
Bless her with full nights of rest and complete health.
In Yahshua’s name AMEN
PS Meghan, I’m glad you’re occasionally messy, it gives me hope. Thanks for sharing and being open and vulnerable with us!
Blessings,
Elaine
@Donelda – I’m all choked up. Anything you have to say is NEVER too long. Thank you. Sooooo much!!! Needed and appreciated. I can tell you got your faith stirred up today 😉
@Elaine – Amen! And that you for encouraging me that even my mess can be encouraging 🙂 It helps to know!
ME too! I feel like I’ve been thru the wringer this past week so I guess I am in good company! Birthday on Friday and it started with a sheriff knocking on the front door. He just wanted us to know that he didn’t see anything of any value on our property but we should be aware that the credit card company wasn’t going away. Ugh..panicked my husband and he shut off the house phone, internet and was about to take the insurance off my van. Just an FYI- we have tried to work with the credit card company and they really don’t want to work with us. This happened as a result of a loss of two jobs and we gave a credible offer to settle even by their own attorneys opinion and still no dice. This triggered my mom to tell us what she really thinks! lol! I also learned last week my little dog is blind and has diabetes. I got some internet back, not the best service but better than going to the library. I know the rest will be worked out just as it will for all of us.
Last week, Misty Edwards and IHOP put out a new song – I will re-share it to move it to the top of my FB page. The chorus went some thing like this ” Don’t give up, just don’t give in, everything is going to be alright, everything is going to be OK. If you don’t give up, don’t give in, you’ll win. He’s got everything in his hands and he’s going to turn it all around. He’s going to make it all beautiful – just in time” That has steadily gone thru my head and helped me keep from losing it. OK, OK I did cry for a day but still I’m not giving up and I know none of us will because we know He is going to turn it all around.
@Julie – Oh sweetie! Bless your heart – I cannot imagine. Praying…. and happy belated birthday 🙂
My prayers are with you Julie! Happy Belated Birthday as well! 🙂
Praying Shalom over us all. The precious blood of Yeshua runs over us. He is perfecting all that which concerns us. Holy Spirit, come as our comforter and advocate. The case has been settled. The debt has been cleared. The hearts have been cleansed. The minds set upon You and are in perfect peace. Take our hands, Abba, Your daughter await a dance.
Thank you, Meghan and team for sharing your heart and prayers. Agree.
Proverbs: 1:33: “But the one who listens to Me will live in security and will be at ease from the dread of harm.” Selah~
Love this!!!
Shalom: is a Hebrew word meaning peace, completeness, and welfare, welfare or safety of an individual or a group of individuals.
“Completeness and welfare or safety.”
I do come into agreement with my sisters in prayer. And I also release the Shalom of God with Melijen over all of us.
God had given them great joy. The women and children were happy. The sound of happiness in jerusalem could be heard far away. Nehemiah 12:43 ncv