Melijen meeting Meghan

This is a two-part scarf story… kind of like a he said/she said about how I met Meghan.  Be sure to catch the other half too 😉 It’s fun to see what the LORD was doing on each side!

Melijen’s Story

I was led to Dyed4You.com after I wanted to buy a scarf that would honor the LORD and wear to work. I had just gotten rid of most of my pricey-looking scarves, as they seemed to be more of a status symbol than a covering. See “Getting the Hell out my House” posting for more about this. I was bubbling with excitement, as I searched the D4Y website and several people, including myself, came to mind to place scarf orders.

However, I sensed the LORD say to me, “Only you” and I placed an order for one prophetically-dyed scarf for myself. I had a particular scripture and specific colors in mind, as the Lord has shown me these as a banner over the ministry He is leading me into. However, I felt that I was to only give my name and “trust” Him with all the rest.

Will You Be Disappointed?

A few days before my scarf arrived, I sensed the LORD asking me if I would be “disappointed.” I was thrown off by this question, as I could not think of a way I could be disappointed, even if the scarf was my least favorite color or a judgment. After all, I trusted Him. And then I thought of one way I could be disappointed: If the scarf I had my heart set on was not really meant or made for me. Ouch.

A Meeting

A couple of days later after mulling over being “disappointed,” I had a meeting with a potential spiritual mentor. I was referred to the person because it seemed like a good fit. I had a dream a few nights before that I was not to accept any position. I went to the meeting with a big heart, as the pressure was off to “perform.” After the meeting I felt grilled, crushed, and invisible.

The LORD spoke to me how I needed to imprint the experience in order that I be made sensitive to how people can feel under-appreciated and their voice is drowned out by overly-seasoned expertise. I felt in that moment and to always be sensitive to people who share their testimony and rejoice in their victory and not look to “minister” where the Lord is not speaking or leading. I freely had forgiven and asked for peace to replace the heaviness.

The Scarf

When I got home from the meeting, I saw that my scarf had arrived. Yay! A brighter moment awaits, I thought. As soon as I saw the scarf, I knew immediately that it was not for me to keep. I a strong wave of disappointment was setting in and a brewing of confusion was on the horizon. Tears were pouring before I could wrangle my true thoughts. And then I had a wonderful thought: What if there is an error and it really is not my scarf? However, the colors were the SAME colors of the paint scheme of the office I had just left.

I LOVED the title “Breakthrough” and the “Prosperity” anointing, as I have been praying for a breakthrough and this is the name of the angel that spoke to Darren Wilson about making the movie “Finger of God.” The scriptures in Deuteronomy and 2 Samuel along with the meanings of the colors were awesome, but I felt like everything was actually meant for another woman. Who? I felt let down. Overlooked.

I asked the LORD what to do, as I felt very torn inside. I had gotten rid of all my other scarves and this one was supposed to be for me to honor Him at work. I sensed His gentle presence indicated that I was to “sow it back” into the D4Y ministry and Meghan would be led to the recipient. My reaction was not by any means obedient. No way did I want to do that, as that was going to be a very uncomfortable conversation. I tried to get off the hook by calling Meghan and asking if I actually received the correct scarf, as my name was not on the letter. I was relieved that I had to leave the question on her voicemail.

Trust and Sow

Shortly after I left a message, she called me back. She confirmed that it was the right scarf. I had no clue how to tell her the whole story without concern about what opinion she could form about me without knowing my heart. I could not bear the thought of upsetting or hurting her. The grace of God was thick and coated our conversation, as I told her the truth. I was obedient to order, the LORD had prepared me that I would be disappointed, He used the scarf’s colors as confirmation, I was to sow the scarf back into the D4Y ministry, not give it away myself, and believe with confidence God would show her who the scarf was to be given.

Our friendship was like a seed that had been planted at that moment. The word “SOAR” was prominent on my mind and I said it over Meghan without a context right before we hung up. She received it as further confirmation of what the LORD had spoken to her. I was humbled to speak over her. Yay God! We talked more in depth and the softness of both of our hearts was revealed. Her deep love of Messiah Jesus was as evident as the color of green on the perfect blade of grass.

Get a Sowin’ Missy

Within a few days, the LORD then spoke to me how I was not to order a scarf for myself but could accept them as gifts. And He gave me a list of names each month to buy scarves and pocketsquares spanning the entire year. Sow, sow, and sow. I have been so blessed by giving and have received quite a few scarves, too. I give scarves that friends have ordered for me away to women as prompted by the Holy Spirit. He gives the order and I follow His leading; even to complete strangers. To watch their eyes light up is priceless. Now I know when the LORD prompts me to wash, anoint, and pray over one of my scarves, it is going to a new heart.

The first list of the month consisted of strong Christian people who ask a lot of great questions and pursue understanding with vigor. Thus, I probably inquired more about the prophetic process than I would have normally because I needed to ask more in-depth questions and demonstrate with certainty that the prophetic process was authentic and anointed. I sensed and knew that it was but I had to communicate that component clearly. Again, another seemingly uncomfortable conversation with Meghan but God’s grace covered our conversations. Meghan never hinted that she was anything except open, honest, humble, kind and gracious. I liked and respected her more and more every second.

I Am Covered

Finally, I did not know it but the LORD closed one door of spiritual mentorship and opened another door the very same day. I have understood and grown so much in my spiritual gifting under Meghan’s leadership and mentorship. She has amazing spiritual gifts, talents, and is steeped in perfect love. Surely as the LORD has enlarged her tent He has enlarged her heart; she has a capacity to love that is truly centered on the LORD and nothing else. She lives and breathes John 15.

If I have to envision what happened over those first few bumpy meetings is this: Both Meghan and I running to Abba Father crying out for understanding and comfort that we were hearing Him correctly. I have been blessed above and beyond what I can even have envisioned back in January. Every person that I ordered for has received a huge hug and precise word from Abba Father and D4Y. I am honored to be an intercessor for D4Y and speak into the ministry. What an amazing God we serve.

In Closing

I hope that each of us is encouraged by moments and interactions that seem to start off rocky but grow into something beautiful over time. Like a seed that grows into rich soil with just the right amount of sunlight and water. Isn’t the LORD big enough to keep away the foxes that would spoil the vine and steal the fruit? Perhaps the breakthrough comes with gentle perseverance to what the LORD is speaking as opposed to what we think He is speaking. The LORD could have very simply led me to just sow a scarf from the start but I would have missed the greater lesson and the bountiful blessing.

We sometimes balk at what Messiah Jesus asks us to do because we do not know the whole narrative yet, just a paragraph in a chapter in which we don’t know the ending. I pray this has blessed and encouraged you to keep running to Him and stay there.